I’m starting a food journey. Or a health journey. Or whatever you want to call it, but I’m making some lifestyle changes. Bear with me while I figure things out and how I will continue with This Tasty Life. For now, I’ll mostly be journaling the photos of the food I’m eating and my various thoughts as I go through this process (see below!). I hope you’ll stick around while I go on this journey! It is hard putting myself out here like this but I hope that my journey will help someone else to take the leap, too! Or if nothing else, you can at least peep my food photos.
First let’s do a food photo.
I ate this salad for lunch today. I posted it on Instagram before I wrote this post proclaiming that I hate lettuce. Maybe “hate” is too strong of a word but I find most salads to be incredibly boring. I made this salad exciting for me by using: baby spinach, baby tomatoes, persian cucumbers, raspberries, a cut up pear, crumbled gorgonzola cheese, and langostino lobster that was dipped in some melted butter. It had all kinds of texture to it which is important to me. PLUS THE CHEESE! That creamy, salty gorgonzola really hit the spot. Damn it was tasty and I ate the whole thing. Better than a sad, boring “lettuce only” salad. I can’t just eat lettuce for lunch. I need texture in my life!
A few weeks ago I clicked on an ad for this health coach – Katelyn Parsons – which asked if you wanted to join a facebook group for modern women who want to learn more about food or something along those lines – honestly, I don’t remember. What I remember is thinking “Oh? A Facebook group? Maybe I could get some tips out of this now that I’m off that Sugar Detox diet”. I didn’t read the group at all before Katelyn messaged me a few times on Facebook messenger, getting to know me, asking questions about where I was at. Jake and I have been off the sugar detox for about two weeks or so now and I already felt like I was stumbling. Some things I have under control – other things I don’t. But I found I was already going up and down in my weight and getting frustrated. I wanted to lose weight! I want to fit properly into my wedding dress! I want to seem like I have it all together and know how to do everything!
Katelyn asked if I wanted to schedule a call to chat and I was reluctant to do it – BUT I DID IT. This was one of the first steps. Not that I knew that at the time. I scheduled that call not really knowing what I was getting into and having self doubt – will this health coach thing really even make a difference for me? Is this a scam? Is she legit? Will I be able to do something like this? Is the cost going to be worth it? WHAT IF I FAIL. But I don’t think I’ll fail. BUT WHAT IF I SIT DOWN AND EAT AN ENTIRE BOX OF DONUTS.
Actually, wait, that sounds really gross to me right now.
This is where I ramble
I had a piece of chocolate and I had one chocolate covered nutter butter cookie after dinner. I felt that little sugar spike that I started noticing more and more after our sugar detox. I felt a twinge of guilt for eating it. But it was enjoyable. But I still had that guilt for even eating it in the first place. What if that one cookie detracts me and I gain 10lbs?!
Then these thoughts lead to me thinking, “Self, you are totally crazy, one cookie is not going to kill you.” But this lead to other thoughts: how do I stop myself from eating a whole box in the future? I’ve done something like that in the past. Am I at a point where I won’t do that again? I want to be.
For dinner, Jake and I went to The Habit so he could get his free birthday Charburger. I got a single burger on that sourdough bread I like. I barely ate half the sandwich and half of the tempura green beans before I started to notice that I was feeling full-ish so I stopped eating and didn’t have anymore. PROGRESS! I didn’t feel guilty about those green beans or that burger, but I did feel guilt about that damn chocolate covered nutter butter cookie.
Okay, back to the Health Coaching Thing
I am doubting that I did the right thing. I mean, shit, it cost a lot. What if I fail? What if it doesn’t work for me? Can I really do this? I want to do this. I want to get out of this rut. I want to feel better about myself. I want to not crave and sit around thinking about food (but damn I do still love food – I want to cook everything!) and having it control my life. I want to be the one who is in control!
I took the first step. I got on board and I’m doing health coaching with Katelyn. I realized I need the help. I feel like I can do this. I CAN DO THIS, RIGHT?!?! Oh god, I hope so.
Thanks for reading this along with me. I don’t have any idea what I’m doing but journaling and writing about it felt like the right thing to do. I think it will further help to keep me on track. LET’S DO THIS.
And now, I will leave you with one more photo of a rad, kick ass thing I saw at Sprouts the other day.